July 14th, 2009

This is what i'm afraid of, and now it really happened. I fell for him. I fell for him hard. I don't like that. I don't want to ruin our friendship. But it's too late now. I am starting to ache for him. This. is. bad. 

This is your fault. You always made me feel so special. You always made me feel that in a sea of girls, you'd only see me. You always give me that sweet sweet smile whenever we come across each other. You would always be a gentleman when it comes to me. I hate that soul-piercing stare of yours. I hate that panty-creaming wink you do when you're being naughty. I hate your sexy voice. I hate everything you possess!

I hate them because i know they'd never be mine. 

Please stop doing these things to me. You're starting to hurt me. 

Grah. I'm starting to hate myself. I feel despicable.